Thursday, May 15, 2008

Running In Circles, Chasing Our Tails, Coming Back As We Are

Ok, Billy Chapel is amazing. He just pitched his second perfect game of the week! There really is no comparable sports accomplishment. Maybe if you would be able to negotiate two raises of 15% or more in the space of a week, then you could put yourself up there with him. Or, if you were able to have great dates with two girls you were into during the same weekend, then you might be Chapel-esque. That's really about it. He's that good. Truth be told, the Tigers are opening a weekend series in Arizona. Maybe I can make the Saturday game and watch a master of their craft.
I'm headed down there tomorrow. I'm looking for a place to set up shop for a while. My job starts down there at the beginning of the month. (For those unaware, I landed a job with Countrywide Financial as a loan consultant. It's out of Mesa, hence the move.) I've got a couple leads that I'll be looking into this weekend. Ideally, there would be this place equidistant to work and the Diamondbacks Stadium (Of course I'm a season ticket holder. Seriously? How many, if any, of you are surprised?) that was part of a strong ward and that had at least one cute girl for me. Is that too much to ask? The question should be, is it enough to get Rick Russell? Is it?
Guess we'll find out. Some people get nervous over this moving stuff. Maybe I am. I haven't been nervous for a long time so I don't really remember what it feels like. I can tell you, that my room looks really bright without the pictures, calendar, jackets, jerseys, and hog hats on the walls. It no longer feels like I live there.
Alright, I'll level. If you talked with me over the past month and thought to yourself, "That was a little different than normal" or didn't go away feeling better, I apologize. I've been taking things a little rough. You see, I acheive goals I strive for. I succeed. Sure, it gives me that swagger that at once alienates most girls and befriends most guys, but it has been constantly replenished by continuous success.
Well, I haven't had too many successes in the past months and it all came to a head at graduation. When I came home from the mission, I set two goals for my time while at BYU. When I left I wanted to A) know who I was going to marry, if not be married and B) have a clear, stable career path. The former isn't unilateral, so I'm not over worried about it. The latter is kind of all about me. Going 0-2 on the two most meaningful goals I've set stings a lot to a guy who doesn't lose a lot.
So yeah, if you thought, he seems a little off, that's why. Maybe I should have shared this earlier, but to be honest, I don't like sharing my problems. I always want to make people feel better about things. On top of that, really, where do I have room to complain? I've lived an overly comfortable life and really had most things in life go my way. If life is a highway, I've been riding on a glass surface up until about a year ago when it got increasingly bumpy. Again, sorry.
Well, I'm heading out to Arizona for good in a little more than a week. If any of you ever come down and want to catch a baseball game, I know a guy with tickets. Unless it's a Saturday game. Then you're kind of on your own. Word.