Sunday, August 24, 2008
Oh Man We Were Living, Didn't Waste One Minute
I've been like that until recently with boating. It originally was this unbelievably cool thing that I'd get to do on special weekends, and eventually became just another thing to kill time. Well, being seven years removed from having one at my disposal has given me a new found appreciation. In the past two and half weeks, I've taken her (of course all ships are female, but no, she does not have a name. I've tried naming vehicles before, but it backfired within twenty-four hours after I named my car. Very hesitant to take that risk again.) out on the river thrice. Absolutely enthralling. Just being on the water and traveling so smoothly, just kind of lets you put everything else behind you for those couple moments. So serene. If real heaven was like cartoon heaven- that is angels resting on clouds, strumming harps- then being on a boat just cruising down the river has to be the closest approximation we have here. In all honesty, I'm contemplating spending a night anchored off shore and just sleeping on the water.
In addition to the re-discovered enjoyment of boating, things are going well. I'm working at the hospital, and keeping busy with church assignments and callings. Really, just one calling, but it sounds better if I use the plural. I thoroughly prefer a busy life to an unencumbered one and I'm very pleased to be on my way to the former of the two. Ask me again in three weeks, and I'll likely complain about it, but know that I still prefer it over spending endless days on my couch.
So yeah, thanks for all your support and willingness to listen to me gripe over living in a mansion with a nice car and two miles from the beach. But seriously, thanks. Word.
Friday, August 15, 2008
I Can Design An Engine 64 Miles To A Gallon Of Gasoline
It's in the hands of the medical schools now. Over the next couple months, I will be compulsively checking my email and various official school sites. Wish me luck.
Oh, I figured you all might want to see it. Here it is. Enjoy, and if you want, let me know what you think of it. More importantly, let me know what you think a person who only knows me from this essay would think of me. Thanks.
I don't remember the exact date, but I'll never forget the moment. I realize that not everyone can identify exactly when they realized what they should do with their lives; the exact minute their life's purpose was undeniably clear. I'm one of the fortunate few; I know exactly when it happened, down to the minute. Over the course of sixty seconds, in a slow flash, with overwhelming certainty, I knew what I could, what I should, and what I wanted to devote my life to.
After nine months as a volunteer in the Pediatric Ward of a local hospital, I began volunteering in the Emergency Room. My shift in the ER was ending for that day and I had spent the last half hour in the trauma room. A patient was wheeled in and the staff began working feverishly. For the next thirty minutes, serving as a scribe, I witnessed and recorded chest compressions, epinephrine pushes, bicarbonate boluses and defibrillation shocks. Then, just after eleven on a Sunday night, everything stopped and the lead physician sighed, "Time." I looked up at the red digits on the clock, recorded the time, and paused for the next instruction. It never came. It didn't have to. Everyone understood.
I had seen dead persons before. But it was that precise moment, that pulse between being alive and then not, that became uncharted territory for me. Being the end of my shift, I drove home with the vivid images and impressions etched on my mind. I had seen a dozen men and women do all they could to help, but in the end, it was out of their hands. I realized that even though their primary objective of saving this life wasn't achieved, they were able to accept it and move forward as though it had been.
This is what separates medical professionals from professionals in other fields; this ability to work toward a goal that may or may not occur despite well-executed procedures. For these professionals, the success was in doing everything they knew how to do, excelling at all the procedural steps within their control. That one minute -those simple sixty seconds- crystallized those impressions in my mind. This understanding, this indelible clarity has directed the course of my actions ever since.
It was, by then, the first semester of my junior year in college. I had already spent my freshman year working toward a degree in finance. Following my freshman year, I volunteered for two years serving as a full-time missionary for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. A strong work ethic has always been a hallmark of my family and dedicated service came naturally. The days were long, the work tough, and the results of the work often not within my control, but throughout the experience I acquired skills that continue to influence my life today. During those years, I gained a greater appreciation for those who devote their lives to service. I personally discovered the joy of learning, the reward of service and the satisfaction that comes from positive life changes.
When I completed my mission, I returned to school with a new direction. After serious thought and prayer, I decided which science courses would best prepare me for medical school while I also made progress towards a major in finance. Every semester, pursuing these two paths meant rigorous credit loads, regular scheduling conflicts, and constant decisions concerning the amount of credits hours to allot each semester to biology, chemistry and physics courses while making sure I had the required accounting, economics and management classes to complete my degree. My commitment to excellence and personal work ethic is demonstrated by the fact that I earned a finance degree from one of the top business schools in the nation while simultaneously completing the science courses that would best equip me to meet the demands of medical school, including devoting my final semester exclusively to science courses.
Graduating with a degree in Finance, I was quickly recruited into a financially lucrative position by a subsidiary of Bank of America. I rationalized taking the job knowing that was a great way to pay for medical school but very quickly realized it was not helping me prepare for medical school and left me feeling unfulfilled and empty. Consequently, despite achieving recognized success in that position, I resigned and readjusted my priorities.
I realize that my current financial rewards are not as great as what I left behind, but I have no regrets. The feeling I get when I make a difference in the life of another human being is more reward than what can be measured in dollars and cents. In a nutshell, I have come to realize that I'd rather be a poor physician in a rural clinic in Pahokee Florida than a wealthy financier on Wall Street.
I am confident that my personal and professional experiences thus far demonstrate my commitment and my character, and I eagerly await the opportunity to join them with the necessary training medical school provides.
Word.
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
I've Been Waiting. I've Been Waiting For This Moment, All My Life.
9:57pmRick
You watching the olympics?
9:58pmC
yes of course
9:58pmRick
They're lauding Michael Phelps for waking up at 6:30am and going to bed around 11pm. That's not that special.
I know about 50,000 guys pulling those hours.
9:59pmC
yes me being one of them i'm pretty sure with pressure he is under i wouldnt be able to sleep
9:59pmRick
Probably. Then again, this pressure is nothing new for him. Really, he's probably felt it since he was 16.
10:00pmC
true that all i know is the man is a beast
10:00pmRick
Not to take anything away from him. I mean, honestly, most dominant athlete in their port...ever?
10:01pmC
it will be if he wins tonight no doubt
10:02pmRick
He has two chances for gold, and one of them is essentially a given. Ok, when you're competing at the olympics, and barring you falling asleep at the start everyone else is playing for silver, that's amazing.
10:02pmC
yes it is
10:03pmRick
Do you also want the french guy to drown?
10:03pmC
yes very much so. he just won that one dangit.
10:04pmRick
I know. And took the world record back.
10:05pmC
friggen french
10:05pmRick
Good for nothing really.
10:05pmC
thats one place i do not want to go on my mission
10:06pmRick
The language wins the women, but it otherwise mostly useless.
10:06pmC
really i thought italian did...?
10:07pmRick
It does as well. Italian is the prettiest though.
10:07pmC
yes i agree if i go on a mission there that'd be sweet
10:07pmRick
Seriously, I was on a bus ride and these two italians were talking infront of me. So beautfiul, just put me right to sleep like a lullaby.
10:08pmC
haha i bet
10:09pmC
dude did you see that dudes eyes?
10:10pmRick
Yeah. Looks like he got jacked.
10:11pmRick
Much like the french guy's world record!
10:11pmC
seriously!
10:11pmRick
For the second time in a week.
10:12pmC
i want katie hoff to win gold
10:12pmRick
She needs to. Badly.
10:12pmC
yes very bad
10:12pmRick
Does she have any gold medals at all?
10:12pmC
nope bronze and silver
10:12pmRick
What about 2004?
10:13pmC
she had a bad year she was the one that passed out on the floor after her race big upset
10:14pmRick
Ouch. Passing out after winning, legendary. Passing out after losing, embarrasing.
10:14pmC
exactly
10:15pmRick
Hoff is getting hammered. She's going to need a Lezak-esque finish. Ouch.
10:16pmC
SHE DIDINT EVEN MEDAL! gosh china beat us on that one!
10:16pmRick
I didn't think I would ever say this about a swimmer, but over-rated.
10:17pmC
that wasnt her best race i still like her but come on!
10:17pmRick
She better take home a gold from this olympics. Otherwise, she might have to be put on suicide watch.
10:18pmC
oh no doubt
10:18pmRick
She passed out while losing last time... is that next?
10:18pmC
haha idk its possible
10:19pmRick
Ok, how many seconds does he break his own record by? I would set the over under at .75
10:20pmC
i say he breaks it at at least that even more
6 YEARS!
10:20pmRick
Seriously, I was typing when they said that, and I stopped and kind of shook as that sunk in.
10:21pmC
Me too
10:21pmRick
Ha ha ha. Make these guys all look like boys. Best quote of the olympics.
10:21pmC
I know i was just gonna say something
10:22pmRick
Want to see an athlete drop the hammer? He's gone. By .06
10:23pmC
Yes he won! whew hes a beast. he won and hes still mad!
10:24pmRick
No joke. I guess when you've already 9 gold medals, winning by itself isn't as special.
10:24pmC
true
10:24pmRick
Ridiculous. He's pissed that he didn't go under 1:52.
10:25pmC
I know i say he takes it out on his next race
10:26pmRick
Wouldn't be surprised.
Ok, is there always at least one hot little gymnast on the American team? Really? How long has this been a tradition.
10:30pmRick
My vote for hottest on the team goes to Alicia Sacramone. Although, Shawn Johnson is clearly a better athlets, Alicia is just striking.
10:31pmC
oh shes a cutie no doubt about it no doubt. these chinese girls look about 10 or 12
10:31pmRick
Yeah, and honestly, I would pick a small german shepherd over any of them in a fight. TKO due to strikes in the first round.
10:32pmC
haha no way she is 20! shes 13!
10:33pmRick
Yeah, ridiculous. She's 15 tops. I think Alicia is 20. I say Alicia like she's an old friend.
10:34pmC
haha i understand. is she? i'm gonna look it up lol
10:35pmRick
She'll be 21 in December!
10:36pmC
I know i just looked it up! shes all yours. dude shes 5'1"
10:36pmRick
Shawn Johnson, that firecracker, all yours my friend.
10:36pmC
haha i'll take it
10:36pmRick
She's 5'1" and she towers over the rest of the competition.
10:37pmC
haha i know she does look tall. johnsons 4'9"! shes 16 though
10:38pmRick
She can't see over the steering wheel. Dude, that's perfect, when you get back, she'll be 18. How's that for a slice of fried gold.
10:38pmC
ITs perfect! she'll need to convert though but thats no big deal
10:39pmRick
That's easily the easiest part of the whole plan.
10:39pmC
oh most def
10:40pmRick
Once you two meet, how could she not join the church?
10:41pmRick
There they are. Sister's C and Russell.
10:42pmC
haha its perfect
10:42pmRick
I swear, if this happens, we are kings.
10:42pmC
golden kings! dude i'm like mezmorized by them just standing there
10:43pmRick
No joke. The killer would be if we start dating them separately, and then we send each other wedding invitations, figuring it out then.
10:43pmC
that would be hilarious!
10:44pmRick
We all have dreams.
10:44pmC
bridget looks like she could beat me up
10:45pmRick
She's scary.
So hot. She looks like she's 5'5" by comparison.
Alicia, obviously.
10:45pmC
Yes we do MLK had a dream and it came true....
10:45pmRick
Not this ugo.
10:45pmC
Haha
of def 5'5"
10:46pmRick
And her olympics are over.
10:46pmC
agreed
10:47pmRick
And the television viewing public is the better for it. She did that ridiculous cross step in the pre-lims.
10:48pmC
i know thats what they just said the same time you said it lol
10:48pmRick
Yeah, I know this crap solid.
10:50pmRick
That's my girl, gets her job done and doesn't even sit down. Just picks up her bag and goes to work at her next task.
10:50pmC
Oh she does work son
10:51pmRick
Heck yeah she does.
10:53pmC
dude i'm like mezmorized by the uneven bars
10:53pmRick
Definitely the most exciting of the women's event. Just mind boggling that people look at a horizontal bar and say, Yep, I am going to fling myself off of that do two flips and a twist, and catch the thing in rhythm. Pretty simple when you think of it that way.
10:55pmC
oh there is no simplicity about it whatsoever. who thought of this event anyway?
10:55pmRick
I think I might dirty my drawers if I went around the bar while still holding onto it, much less letting go in efforts to catch it later.
10:55pmC
oh i def would i mess mine just catchin air
10:57pmC
that blonde one is a cutie too
10:58pmRick
Yeah she is, and in other olympic years, such as 2000, she might have been the eye candy. But now she's third.
10:58pmC
but that is still a good third let me tell ya
10:59pmRick
No arguments there.
Word.
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
She's A Good Girl, Loves Her Mama, Loves Horses, And Her Boyfriend Too
So I'm knocking around in a fairly large size home. No really. If you and a dozen of your friends want to stay near the beach, I know a guy with room. While down here, I've been looking around for jobs in medical centers and hospitals. Hopefully, something is going to come through within the next couple days, but nothing is certain. I've also been looking into volunteer opportunities, but, and I don't fully understand this, no one is looking for volunteers. I finally got a hold of a doctor in a specialty worth shadowing, and am trying to line something up with him, but that is looking like it might be a couple weeks.
So, to recap, I live alone in a good sized home, with no job, no volunteering and the beginnings of shadowing experiences. If you would have told me this was my life two years ago, I would have been ecstatic. Really, I divide my time in the mornings between fishing, sleeping, reading and television. Sleeping is leading the division by a good six games. Afternoons, I watch One Tree Hill (How did no one tell me about this show before now? I'm hooked. Maybe it's because I just watched the columbine episode and one of the main characters got shot, but regardless, I definitely looked on ebay to see what it would take to get the series- too much by the way.) and then make a couple phone calls or visits to the dozen or so people I stopped by concerning employment. At six, back to back Stump the Schwab comes on followed by Jeopardy at 7pm. after 7:30, dinner of some sort, then fishing, or watching a baseball game. Unless it's institute or FHE night. And I guess adult volleyball is starting on Fridays nights. So if you call, at any given time of day, you have a fairly good idea of where I am or what I'm doing. The deviation is starting to grow though, as I'm meeting more people roughly my age.
I really don't have an agenda for this post. Normally I wait until I do, but I figured going a month without anything of substance, no recapping baseball predictions does not count, is inexcusable.
However, I do need to dole out some props.
First and foremost: The Dark Knight. If you haven't seen it, seriously, shut down your computer right now and go see it. If you've only seen it once, go to hollywood.com and buy tickets for the next possible matinee. It's better than that good. It's simply incredible from all aspects. Cinematography, performances, score, symbolism, script. All of it. Easily the best movie I've seen in a decade. Better than Batman Begins, not by a lot mind you, but by a good margin. Just spectacular. When it hits the dollar theater, I will see it probably twice more. It will likely depend on how many dollars I have at that time.
Second: Baseball division races. Really, if you ever wanted to get into baseball, pick one of them 13 teams currently in the hunt for their respective divisions and follow them for the next month and change. It doesn't get any better than this year for baseball. All the teams are close and evenly matched (excluding the Angels).
Third: One Tree Hill (See above). I'm more interested it it than a man my age should be.
Word.